As you sit back and enjoy life there is that time you forget that it is ending. With every breath we take we are closer to it. The past week has been a little hard. My Papa had a stroke on Monday morning. It has been a really rough 3 days. It is slowly ending. His life, his pain, his aggravations, him being worried it is all slowly ending. Over the past year we have all know this was going to come. Each time we "prepared" ourselves for the worst. You never now what it is like until it happens. The moment you run out of tears from hearing your grandmother tell her husband of 60 years "I love you" and "Goodbye" for the possible last time as he lays there unresponsive to her and everything around her, that is the moment you realize your life is about to change, her life is about to change. I remember that there is a bigger person, a bigger power that takes this on. I have to tell myself that God is there and it is through Him that we are alive, forgiven. He is our rock and salvation. We are to call upon him. He has gotten me through this. He will get me through what there is to come. As Papa Bill's time comes near an end, I think of the things that are amazing about him and the so many memories that we will always have of him! Here are just a few to share- -He always had a Passion for golf. Golf will forever be a sport I hold true and dear to my heart. He loved to play and everyone at YCGC will miss him dearly. -Until Monday, he was always feeding somethings, it could be a cat, dog, bird, turtle, rabbit, anything... his love for all living thingswas amazing. -He is the most patient man I know. He would never get angry until the last possible second. He was so calm all the time. -He had a heart of gold. He loved everyone so much and knew the right words to say to cheer you up. My brother takes after him for this. -His tomato plants always over produced! That man would have more tomatoes then anyone I know. He ate one with every meal. Just make sure there was salt and pepper. -Every valentines day since I can remember he would buy me candies. Caramel, chocolate, pecans! They were the best. This past valentines day we sat down with a glass of milk and ate them together with my Mom and Barbara! They were so good and I will love those Millionaire candies so much! -Jello, When I was little and sick he would be my babysitter when I couldn't go to school. He would always make Jello and we would eat it together as a snack in the afternoon! There are so many other memories! Those are just a few! Sorry for the downer post but thank you to everyone that has prayed for us over the past 5 years. It has been an amazing 23 years with him and I can't wait to walk with him again. Love ya'll so much!
I started my new job today! I am very excited to finally be a full time employee! Today was such a good day, (except for the fact that I over slept.) I am excited to finally be paying my own bills and living on my own for the first time! I have to thank everyone for praying for me as well as keeping me encouraged! It means the world and I really don't know what I would have done without it! Thank you! Now that I have a job, I am finding myself wondering if it is really what I want. Recently I have learned so much about my relationship with Christ. I have grown over the past few years but nothing like the past few months. I have completely realized that He is in control and that why in the world do I think I can constantly take care of things myself when all it does is stress me out! These past few months have been a roller coaster ride of emotions as well as much mental pain and growing. I wouldn't trade it for the world and I won't regret anything that has happened. But for some reason I feel as if the world is passing me by. As if I'm standing still and letting life happen without being a part of it. Why? I guess I can only fix this and get on with life without being stressed out! On a side note: Can't wait till my first paycheck!!! Wahoo!!!
Over the weekend I went to Ruidoso. It was so nice to "get away" from it all! I was able to spend time with my mom and my brother. We always spend quality time on the golf course. I say quality time because when the family is on the golf course it is a bit of an experience. I am not as good as a golfer as my brother. I mean the kid really went to play college ball and works at a golf course. Really.... He is so much better then me. So that being said, I always get mad at him for being better then me. I did not break 100 and lost about 4 balls! And yes I yelled at Justin and wanted to quite after the 2nd hole! I am just glad my coach (dad) was not there. I am pretty sure that I really would have stopped playing after the 2nd hole! HA!! However, I really enjoyed playing with my mom and brother. I really do enjoy playing golf, I just never make it out to the golf course.
After golfing we went to eat at one of my favorite places in Ruidoso, The Quarters. It is just a bar but for some reason I think it really has the best food ever! I think it is their onion rings! Mom and I went shopping in town and ate fudge and had a good time. We also went to Inn of the Mountain Gods to waste our money away on the slots. Yes, I wasted my money away because I won nothing.
Here is a picture of my perfect swing and my brothers.
The pictures are kinda blurry! We had a great time. And one of these days I will beat him!
P.S. I have a job interview tomorrow (Tuesday) at Mass Mutual! I am excited about it because hopefully that means full time job and money and more then 3 hours of work a day! Kinda excited for this!!!
I have decided that there might be enough going on in my life that I should let others know about! So here I am!
This week, even though it is just Monday, has started out great. Brad Paisley was amazing! So much fun! And today I was able to meet with my mentor. He has been helping me with my job hunting! Hopefully something will happen soon. As of today I have been applying for jobs that are going to be beneficial to me and my aptitudes. I went and took an aptitude test last week and it taught me so much about myself that I already knew and stuff that I had no idea I was good at! (The test told me I was creative!! So excited about that!!!) So Mike (my mentor) has helped me figure out a job that would be exciting for me to have as well as match my aptitudes! So watch out banks here I come! I am going to (cross your fingers) be a loan officer!
So please keep praying about me getting a job!
Here are a few pictures from Brad Paisley-
Brad Paisley-Amazing Guitar Player
I think I counted 7 or 8 guitars. Most of them were paisley print! (So is my shirt ;))